I don't like pain, I'd rather avoid it.
I don't like to suffer, it makes me feel angry.
How dare I be exposed for being weak and mortal!
When I feel pain, I get upset.
When I get sick, I feel frustrated.
I fight it.
This isn't me, I tell myself.
I am a happy, confident, strong and healthy woman
who has come this far, learned so much, grown in wisdom and maturity.
And I love to take risks, to take on a good challenge.
But...
I don't like pain, I 'd rather avoid it.
How can I call myself wise and mature if I don't like pain?
How can I call myself a risk-taker if I don't accept pain
and see it as something that's making me stronger?
Is it making me stronger?
What will happen if I give in to this painful teacher,
Accept my defeat and admit that I am merely mortal?
Is there another school of life to learn how to be strong and wise?
Or am I destined to experience pain again and again,
simply battling on, fighting what I know to be a losing fight?
And only perhaps one day discovering the secret?
Questions for which I'm not sure I want to hear the answers.
In the meantime,
this is me.
I don't like pain, I'd rather avoid it.
